2 years, Big changes.

Here I am again, at the computer, trying to pretend I'm a fantastic blogger.

Except a lot has changed since my last post.

1. IM MARRIED:)...

Nope not to the famous missionary I talked about in all of my other posts. If you would have told me I was going to marry someone else I would have laughed in your face up until about a 3 months before I got engaged to my wonderful husband Damon.

 Sometimes we have our mind so set on the things we want or have planned that we don't take the time to listen to what our father in heaven has planned for us. I told Damon that we'd have to wait until Dane got home so many times I probably couldn't count, but on the inside I knew otherwise, I knew that Damon was the right one for me, I knew he'd take me and we'd continue to help each other become the People we always wanted to be. Damon told me that he was okay with waiting and that he would date me, just to be with me, until the day Dane got home. Thats when it hit me; Damon truly loved me and he wouldn't stop loving me, even with the thought that I may choose a different path in the future. Before Damon, Dane was the  only one I knew that hadn't left me yet (I met him when I was 15) so I created an Emotional Bond to him. I grew up in a single parent family where the only men I knew where the ones that would come in, put on a pretty face, stay for a while, try and create a good relationship and leave unexpectedly, it seemed to be an on going process throughout my childhood and I wasn't about to let it happen in my future. I think that is why it took me so long to let go and Trust what I already knew;  I  was aloud to have someone as wonderful as Damon in my life, he was a new Man in my life and this one wasn't going to leave. 

Dane is  a Wonderful person, he was my best friend growing up and he helped me through a lot of trials, god brought us together for a reason, but that reason wasn't so we could grow up get married, it was so we could  build each other up, encourage each other to do things like go on a mission, always be faithful, keep our eyes on the temple ect.  And thats just what we did, although we haven't talked since he got home from his mission I'm thankful for him, without his example I don't think I'd be where I am today. Damon is without a doubt the one for me, he Keeps me in line and focused on the future, he makes me laugh and puts up with me being so annoying and thinking it's funny(in fact just last night a obnoxiously sang disney songs until he fell asleep and he pretended to enjoy it), Im so grateful that I met him and decided to Marry him for Eternity.

2.   STILL DENTAL ASSISTING

...Okay Maybe not that much has changed besides the Marriage thing (which is kind of a huge deal).  I love my job so much, I wanted  to be a dental assistant since Jr. high and I still can't believe I actually went through with it.Training at my job was so hard for me, I had a hard time learning under pressure when I first started, I was the slowest dental assistant known to man kind. It didn't help that when I first started I wasn't eating, it wasn't a a huge deal and didn't last very long but it sure took a toll on me being able to retain the information that I needed to know, for the first 6+months I'd go home crying at least once a week, because of my low self esteem and the fact that I knew I was driving everyone nuts because I couldn't catch on.

 I began to think I wasn't cut out for the job, My boss began to think that also, he brought me in to his office and told me that I was slow and  he told me the things I needed to work on (which was everything) . I began  praying every morning before work that I would be able to improve and that he would notice me trying harder. The 100's of prayers must have worked because slowly but surely I began to relax and and build the confidence be able focus and improve on my work. 

The Doctor brought me in for another review and said " Wow Dani you have really improved, I was beginning to think I was going to have to fire you, but your doing a lot better, good job" I didn't know how to take it at first  I remember thinking " Woah, I didn't know I was that bad", but I decided to take it as a good thing and continue to improve. Now a lot has changed since then, I still make mistakes, but I enjoy what I do.  I have grown so close to ALL of the girls I work with they really are my best friends, I can talk to them about ANYTHING :) 

Next year I'm going back to school for dental hygiene, I'm so excited, but very nervous. It seems every time I tell someone what I want to do they always seem to say "Oh, well (insert girls name here) tried that and she's so smart and she didn't get in"... What am I supposed to say to that?! "Ooh really? I'm not as smart as her so I guess I should give up now."

UMM NO.

 I'm determined to become a Dental Hygienist, and I'm so excited for the  hard and rewarding road ahead.

Yep so thats about it, I might not write for a while again unless I'm stuck at home trying to avoid doing the dishes :)

Much love!

Until Next time,

DANI WARD