Choosing your Companion

This past November I didn't take the time to write everyday what I'm thankful for but if I could just choose one thing it would be that I'm thankful for companions, it's never fun to be alone!! Every thanksgiving we get to sit with our loved ones, eat dinner and enjoy or time together and I love it. Being around everyone is the best feeling ever.

All growing up, Sunday was our family day, we'd go over to grandma and grandpa's and we'd all have a fancy dinner that grandma prepared for us. we'd talk laugh and Love. It went on for many years until my grandma was diagnosed with cancer, believe me she wasn't ready to stop serving Sunday dinner but we all new that we needed to give her a rest. My grandma was so giving to all she knew, she was strong and fought for her life everyday but eventually that cancer took over and that sweet lady was welcomed to the other side as we all watched take her last breath. There were many tears, but the person that seemed the strongest was her one true love, grandpa. He had to be, to show his companion's children that it was okay and we'd all be with her again one day.

A few years after my grandma passed away, I had turned 18 and my grandpa gave me the option move out of my house and live with him, I jumped at the offer, I wanted to move out to experience being away from home and I wanted to give my grandpa company. I don't know how much company I really was though, I spent a lot of time with friends. My grandpa spent his evenings reading the newspaper or watching specials on tv, at  930 and I'd see him read his scriptures and go to bed. He was going through the motions of everyday life but he was missing something he had always had; a companion, a friend, someone to talk to and someone for him to be with all the time. 

One day grandpa announced he was ready to start dating again, he'd go on a few dates every so often until the day he came home with a smile on his face and told us about this nice lady he had met, he took her out to Texas road house and they had hit it off and had talked for a real long time. From then on it seemed that my grandpa has much more of a life then I ever did! He seemed to never be home when I was and he'd even come home later then me! I had to remind him that 11:00 was way past his curfew ;) haha, he was a lot happier, I very rarely saw him sitting  quietly in front Of the tv anymore and he seemed to have a new glow with him :) not long after they met, my grandpa asked Sharon to become his companion for the  rest of his life and she said yes! They had a beautiful wedding in April of 2012. And I'm so thankful for Sharon and the happiness she has brought to my grandpa.

Watching my grandpa has made me thankful for the chance to choose who we want to be with, we choose who makes us happy and who we want to spend the most time with and I think that is such a specail opportunity!

Until next time,

Peace out Boy Scout :)

2 years, Big changes.

Here I am again, at the computer, trying to pretend I'm a fantastic blogger.

Except a lot has changed since my last post.

1. IM MARRIED:)...

Nope not to the famous missionary I talked about in all of my other posts. If you would have told me I was going to marry someone else I would have laughed in your face up until about a 3 months before I got engaged to my wonderful husband Damon.

 Sometimes we have our mind so set on the things we want or have planned that we don't take the time to listen to what our father in heaven has planned for us. I told Damon that we'd have to wait until Dane got home so many times I probably couldn't count, but on the inside I knew otherwise, I knew that Damon was the right one for me, I knew he'd take me and we'd continue to help each other become the People we always wanted to be. Damon told me that he was okay with waiting and that he would date me, just to be with me, until the day Dane got home. Thats when it hit me; Damon truly loved me and he wouldn't stop loving me, even with the thought that I may choose a different path in the future. Before Damon, Dane was the  only one I knew that hadn't left me yet (I met him when I was 15) so I created an Emotional Bond to him. I grew up in a single parent family where the only men I knew where the ones that would come in, put on a pretty face, stay for a while, try and create a good relationship and leave unexpectedly, it seemed to be an on going process throughout my childhood and I wasn't about to let it happen in my future. I think that is why it took me so long to let go and Trust what I already knew;  I  was aloud to have someone as wonderful as Damon in my life, he was a new Man in my life and this one wasn't going to leave. 

Dane is  a Wonderful person, he was my best friend growing up and he helped me through a lot of trials, god brought us together for a reason, but that reason wasn't so we could grow up get married, it was so we could  build each other up, encourage each other to do things like go on a mission, always be faithful, keep our eyes on the temple ect.  And thats just what we did, although we haven't talked since he got home from his mission I'm thankful for him, without his example I don't think I'd be where I am today. Damon is without a doubt the one for me, he Keeps me in line and focused on the future, he makes me laugh and puts up with me being so annoying and thinking it's funny(in fact just last night a obnoxiously sang disney songs until he fell asleep and he pretended to enjoy it), Im so grateful that I met him and decided to Marry him for Eternity.

2.   STILL DENTAL ASSISTING

...Okay Maybe not that much has changed besides the Marriage thing (which is kind of a huge deal).  I love my job so much, I wanted  to be a dental assistant since Jr. high and I still can't believe I actually went through with it.Training at my job was so hard for me, I had a hard time learning under pressure when I first started, I was the slowest dental assistant known to man kind. It didn't help that when I first started I wasn't eating, it wasn't a a huge deal and didn't last very long but it sure took a toll on me being able to retain the information that I needed to know, for the first 6+months I'd go home crying at least once a week, because of my low self esteem and the fact that I knew I was driving everyone nuts because I couldn't catch on.

 I began to think I wasn't cut out for the job, My boss began to think that also, he brought me in to his office and told me that I was slow and  he told me the things I needed to work on (which was everything) . I began  praying every morning before work that I would be able to improve and that he would notice me trying harder. The 100's of prayers must have worked because slowly but surely I began to relax and and build the confidence be able focus and improve on my work. 

The Doctor brought me in for another review and said " Wow Dani you have really improved, I was beginning to think I was going to have to fire you, but your doing a lot better, good job" I didn't know how to take it at first  I remember thinking " Woah, I didn't know I was that bad", but I decided to take it as a good thing and continue to improve. Now a lot has changed since then, I still make mistakes, but I enjoy what I do.  I have grown so close to ALL of the girls I work with they really are my best friends, I can talk to them about ANYTHING :) 

Next year I'm going back to school for dental hygiene, I'm so excited, but very nervous. It seems every time I tell someone what I want to do they always seem to say "Oh, well (insert girls name here) tried that and she's so smart and she didn't get in"... What am I supposed to say to that?! "Ooh really? I'm not as smart as her so I guess I should give up now."

UMM NO.

 I'm determined to become a Dental Hygienist, and I'm so excited for the  hard and rewarding road ahead.

Yep so thats about it, I might not write for a while again unless I'm stuck at home trying to avoid doing the dishes :)

Much love!

Until Next time,

DANI WARD